hey, me

remember when a few days ago you woke up
at like noon
tired and groggy from sleeping by
the cell phone snooze button (when you push it,
there's a weird message that
you never catch
on the little screen on the outside,
and you always only catch the word snooze
and every single time you see that "snooze",
it looks stranger and stranger and snoozier)
again, and thought
"one of these days i'll spend the whole day in bed
just sleeping away and
maybe opening a book or
my laptop every once in a while
and maybe i'll need to go take a piss at some point
and i'll have to get up for smokes too"? well,
you don't have to wait long for that
because there's what,
a month and a bit until
it's holidays
and you can do what the fuck
ever you want except drink
red wine at the school studio painting
big pictures of things that you
won't
and can't
ever be
or have.
but
okay, you can always doodle and write
and compose your never-finished tunes,
maybe you'll even manage
some actual drawings or
maybe you'll, for a change,
have an idea so profound
and so you
that you'll just happily anticipate
for the school to start again and
that's when you remember that time goes by so fast
you'll never even notice it before it's past
and oh right
you didn't even see anyone during this break,
you were all too busy wanking and wallowing
in your oh-so-lonely and tormentful life
to do so.

but everything'll be fine
as long as you stay true
to yourself and all the others
and do whatever you can.

sincerely yours, you.

(10. nov 2010)