you will not eat me

no
not this
shit again
not when i'm
finally feeling myself
again
feeding myself, finding
parts that
belong
and that don't
i am not a shell, i'm not
boring
i am not a ghost, not
mine nor yours
not lonely
even when alone
i'm not
easy, i am not
nothing and
i will not disappear
and you will not
eat me
without an explosion
of bitter
bile
and sharp nails
in your guts
i'll pull your teeth
one by one
tear you up
even if i break
or shatter
you will not eat me
don't you
fucking dare
because
i'm not
lost
yet.

(last night, 3 am, good riddance)